When is it ok to worry?

Well today was our second trip to Sick Kids with my soon to be 6 year old daughter.  Our first was a result of a walk in clinic back at the beginning of January with all 3 of my children who were not feeling well and ended up being sick with Strep Throat.  During that particular visit the doctor discovered my little girl had a heart murmur that she described as metallic ( whatever the heck that means) so she writes up a referral and tells us we HAVE to get our daughter down to Sick Kids Hospital that day! So after spending a couple hours already at the walk in clinic we drag all 3 kids down to Sick Kids Hospital to get her checked out.  Keeping in mind that all 3 of my children are already sick and not feeling their best.  We wait 14 hours YES 14 hours before they let us go home! They did all the usual tests ECG ECO Chest X ray and tell us it's nothing to worry about just a innocent heart murmur but there is some swelling around the walls of her heart and to just give her some Advil for a few days.  2 days later they call us and say that she has to go back to Sick Kids to see the Head of Cardio!!  So by now I'm thinking what did they miss?  So we go today, wait and wait and finally are seen and the doctor checks her out and decides that he does hear something and is almost positive he knows what the cause is ( MVP) but orders yet another ECO to determine exactly the amount of damage or whatever we are dealing with.  Which won't be done until NEXT week! So here I am a worried mother having to wait yet another week to find out if her baby girl is ok or if we are in this for the long haul!!
Now I know I am probably being an over protective mama but this is my baby girl we are talking about here!! I think I have every right to be freaked out and worried just a tiny bit!!!  After all what mother wouldn't be right?

A Vent of sorts!

As most of you know I do childcare out of my home as my "job".  Now I have ads posted on various sites and a website as well.  What I do not understand and what irritates me to NO end is the amount of people who either just DO NOT fully read the ad or just are that STUPID!

All to many times I  get people asking me where I am located or if I do drop offs to schools 2 towns over!!!  Or I get the ones who email me back and forth asking all kinds of questions and I take the time to answer them ALL No matter how busy I am, but when it comes right down to it they will either set up a time and date to meet and come and see my place and NOT show up without calling or emailing, OR I get the ok well I have to talk it over with so and so and I will get back to you, BUT I never hear back.

Normally if someone emails me inquiring about childcare I will give it a day or so and then send a follow up email just to make sure they received my first reply ( as we know how sometimes emails do not go through) and what drives me insane is they don't even reply saying they aren't interested or anything!

Now maybe that is just me but I just find it VERY RUDE!  I mean I take the time to answer YOUR million and one questions and you don't even have the common courtesy to answer an email and let me know your either NOT coming or not interested!!

AM I Wrong???  Is it too much to expect to be treated with some respect??  Or has all common courtesy towards others gone right out the window these days??? 

Sunday Morning Bliss or ???

Well another Sunday Morning is here and of course my 3 lovely children do not sleep in! Which makes it even more in tolerable for me as I have been having some major issues with sleeping lately, I am lucky to get an hour or two a night!  It is not for lack of trying that's for sure! My brain just will not shut off to many things running through my head.  For some reason that is the time that things start popping into my head that I should not be thinking about or that I thought I had dealt with and moved on from. Apparently NOT huh?

So now as I sit here writing or attempting to write I am listening to my 3 fight as per usual for them! It's all they do from the time they wake up until well after it is time for them to be asleep!
I do not remember being quite so young and yet being so mouthy and dis respectful of my mother! I have tried every Time Out thing I can think of, taking things away and anything else just simply DOES NOT work for my 3!  I am sure my being beyond over tired does not help either. I just keep telling myself there has to be some way to get through to them I just haven't found it yet.

I also need to find a way to get myself some more rest!  Then maybe just maybe I can get through 1 day without having a total meltdown in tears!!!!

Never done this before

Well as I sit here writing this, I am still unsure if it is the right thing for me but here goes nothing.

It's another Saturday night of sitting at home either in front of my PC or the TV which is quite typical in this house.  I honestly can't remember the last time I have actually done something that is considered FUN outside of the house! 
I mean I love my 3 munchkins to pieces but as any mother knows WE NEED a BREAK!!! Which I very seldom EVER get!  Especially with what I do for work ( childcare out of my home) which I do enjoy immensely!!
I would just LOVE a bit more ME time. As well as time with my hubby where it didn't involve either a computer or a TV screen!!! Maybe I am just in a RUT again which I do tend to get into quite frequently and need to vent.
I really do not like feeling like this so often because it is not fair on anyone who has to live with me.  BUT I am only human right?
I really do not think I am asking for to much, or maybe I am?? Or maybe this post just makes NO sense..